October 15th

Many of you know my story, my journey to motherhood and all the bumps in that road that life has dealt me. There is no need to rehash it all here - but I do want to take a few minutes to remember it all again, at least in some small way on this day. October 15th is Remember Our Babies day -the national day to remember pregnancy and infant loss.

For those of us who fall into this category, it is a special day. I never got to meet or get to know the children that I lost. Their souls flew to Heaven before I could see their sweet faces. I feel that I am so blessed to have been their mom for even a short period of time on this earth and I am so looking forward to meeting their little souls in Heaven one day.

I am glad there is a day to publicly remember them - to stop for just a minute and pause - think about their life, where they would be, how old they would be now, who they would look like and how different my life would be had each of those sweet souls lived. I am sad for the loss of the unknown in my life. I will mourn them all the days of my life.

This day also causes me to be reminded once again in the mercy of God that He allowed me to become a mother after all. At the end of that long, hard road, He gave me a daughter to raise, to love and to enjoy all those mommy moments I felt that this earth and my body robbed me of earlier in life.

Pausing to think about them on this day also reminds me how grateful I am for the friends and family who saw me through the dark days and for a faith that assures me that one day I will meet and get to spend time with each one of my precious and sweet babies who are already enjoying God's eternal glory.

I am hugging my heart's joy a little closer tonight. I love my daughter beyond all words, beyond all in this world. She is truly my gift from above and a constant source of happiness and joy in my life.

Thanks for taking a moment and remembering my lost babies with me - I appreciate it - more than you know.

Living Happily In The Moment,
Beverly