Christmas Past!

Christmas has come and gone. It is sad to me that I am rejoicing in the fact - but I am. There is no denying that I was the Scrooge, the Grinch and definitely not a Who from Whoville this year. I had my reasons. Some were silly - like how I was too tired to want to drag the decorations down from the attic, or that I was tired of my master bedroom looking like a department store storage bin. Looking back though, I can see that these were just coverups for the greater reason that my Christmas mood was more blue than the festive red and green of those around me.

I lost something precious the week before Christmas. Before official confirmation and before the grand Christmas day announcement, once again, my tired body failed and happy news that would have thrilled, soon became sad news that no one needed to hear at such a happy time. So, I kept quiet. Only a few, closer than close people knew my sad secret and that made it and my holiday somehow more bearable. So, no new baby this year, it would have been a shock and surprise anyway...a good one, but just not meant to be. I have known this fact for many years now, I am not a child-bearer. I am blessed to be a mother though, through the miracle of adoption, and for me that is enough. I am completely comfortable with this path, even when hope springs up at me and makes me question what I truly want and the path of the "what if's" in life.

So, for everyone who struggled through every last word of my emotional breakdown on my blog last week...thanks for reading. I appreciate it, and all the kind comments you sent me. You didn't know what I was going through and yet, you took the time to encourage me and it meant the world to me.

NOW - on to happier thoughts. WE WENT TO DISNEY WORLD!!!

Yes, we, the crazy parents of an even crazier four year old traveled to Florida to visit family and spent an extra day of our trip at the "happiest place on earth!" Actually, that is a funny slogan, cause for the most part, all I saw were grumpy parents, tired and hot children and occasionally some grandparent sitting back and watching it all with a sly, satisfied grin. Like maybe they were thinking their children were getting paid back for something!!

Hannah had a good time, although she was not a fan of meeting the characters, with the exception of Cinderella, and she had a little (HAHAHA) trouble understanding the whole "waiting in line" concept... but the Holiday Spectacular Parade was a HIT and seeing her face as she waved to Cinderella in the parade was worth every bit of money we shelled out.

We traveled home all night, slept today and my husband went to work tonight - it has been a whirlwind couple of days. I am just grateful to be home, even if home is cluttered with Christmas decorations that need to come down and toys in every room. My kitchen needs a deep cleaning and there is laundry piled high, but it feels so good to be here, I am not complaining a bit! I will get some pictures up tomorrow...hopefully!

I hope you all had a very merry Christmas and that the holidays were all you wanted them to be. For those of you like me, who felt a little something lacking this year, there is always the hope of next year... only three hundred sixty more days to go!!

Living Happily in the Moment!
Beverly