Hope? Maybe?

I think I have sung this song on this blog before....but bear with me.... it is coming through again..

I've got so much, so much, so much to be thankful for!

And it is true. I do!

For the past few months I have been allowing myself to wallow a bit in the misery of life. The whys and why nots, the pitiful and woeful me, the should have beens and could have beens and even a bit of stomping my foot and declaring I know what is best for my life!! Well, I will not say that is over...that would be a big ole "story" as my child would say. The funk I have fallen in is far from over... but I am hopefully scaling the upside of the hole.

I found myself puttering about my kitchen this afternoon fixing dinner and thinking about my life. I do have an immense amount of joy in my life. I have lived a very happy existence to date, there are things that I wish had been done differently, but all in all, life is pretty good from my vantage point. I decided to take a few moments and list a few things I am deeply thankful for, this day, this afternoon, this very moment.

I am thankful for a warm home, a healthy child, a husband that loves our child more than his own life and provides a life for us.

I am thankful for my deep freezer. Recently my refrigerator and freezer have been on the fritz! It was so wonderful to be able to "rescue" the food and have a place to store it all for another day!

I am thankful that Phillip Spaulding finally returned to Guiding Light. I have watched the soap opera since 1979 when my grandmother introduced me to it... his character was always my favorite. His return to the show has improved my afternoon attitudes immensely!

I am thankful for sweet tea. I don't think I really need to explain that.

I am thankful for my crockpot - again, no explanation is needed.

I am thankful for my collection of 80's music -- honestly, some of the past few days and weeks would have been misery without them!

I am really thankful that my email has a "save as draft" function. I came very close to cutting someone out of my life for good this afternoon -- if not for that STOP AND THINK ABOUT IT option on the email, I would be in even more self-inflicted misery this week.

I am thankful for the life I have and I am thankful that I still have the ability to see the silver lining in the black cloud that seems to have gathered around my innermost thoughts. There is hope, for that I am most thankful!!

Living Happily in the Moment!
Bev