What Dreams May Come

What happens when dreams come true? What happens when hopes turn into reality and things longed for, actually exist? For me, it means that you turn a corner and keep on dreaming, hoping and longing for the next thing in your life.

I am someone who has longed for things deeply in life. For many years I longed for a child to fill the empty space where children had come and gone and never stayed. I can remember those days like they were yesterday. The cold chills whenever anyone I knew made a pregnancy announcement, the stab of pain on Mother's Day and Father's Day and heavens, even Grandparent's Day. Walking away from conversations when women my age would began recounting birthing stories (or even horror stories), and walking past the empty room in my home that should have, oh so long ago, held a sleeping baby.


I never thought I would be a mom. I had given up when my sweet Hannah came into my world. She lit it up, filled all the rooms of this house and pushed out every dark, sad cobweb that lurked in the corners.

I have had other dreams come true that were not such happy endings. For as long as I can remember I wanted to be a florist, mostly because my favorite aunt was one and I longed to replicate her success in my own life, in lots of ways! I went to school, I earned the degree necessary, I opened a shop, only to have it fail. Some might think it was a failure that would have been devastating to me...it wasn't. It is a dream that I am glad I got to experience, happy for it, but once realized, I have discovered that it is a dream that I can put aside and just remember fondly.


There are other dreams in my world, some have yet to come true, and thankfully some have materialized


Where I am at today in my world, life is challenging for me. I am struggling to sort out my life, to find my place in the world again, to investigate my heart and soul to find out how I want to spend the next forty years, figure out what dreams I want to dream now. I think it might be a mid-life crisis. I have talked with others my age and stage in life...we are all going through it, in some form or fashion.

I am discovering that I have burdens, and some heartaches, but mostly joy and some really unexpected moments of happiness. There are some dreams that have hopped from my mind into my world, and for that I am truly thankful.

It is Friday the 13th. It is supposed to be a bad luck day, but today, it feels like a good day. It feels like a happy day, like a day that bad stuff just can't touch. I am reflective today, maybe it is the weather, maybe it is the sound of my child laughing, maybe it is missing my parents, whatever the cause for this reflection, I am happy for it, I am hopeful for the future and for the opportunities that lie ahead. Today, life is good.

Hope it is for you too!

Living Happily in the Moment!
Beverly