"It's 4 in the morning, and I'm lying here awake. The midnight air is only occupied by the breath I take."
Okay - I will confess, I TOTALLY stole that line from a song. My friend who reads this will know and because of that-- I have to fess up, otherwise... you people know I would claim the line as my own!
Why?
Because every night, usually around 3:45 AM, my precious daughter wakes up, calls for me and I pitter- patter to her room, praying I don't whack myself in the head with a wall on the way. Then I spend the next few minutes scratching her back, soothing her back to sleep until finally she is snoring away and there I am WIDE AWAKE -- at 4 in the morning!!!
ARGH!
There is really no other point to this post, but to make a mark in the sand of time. One day I will read this and remember fondly these times. One day, when I am always able to sleep soundly through the night, no disruptions of precious beauty sleep, when I am alone in my house because my daughter is in college or worse, grown and married with babies of her own to keep her awake, it is for that day that I write.
I want to remember that it was all real, that all the the lack of sleep was worth it. I know I will miss these days and nights with my girl. It will pass too quickly, it already has.
I pray that I can remember this fact tonight and tomorrow night and the night after, as I am winding my way down the dark hallways of this house, trying to get to her side.
Living Happily In the Moment!
Bev
2 comments:
As a mother of an almost 2 year old hoping to have at least 2 more children in the fray at some point, I recently read a great suggestion, each day write down one thing about your child. it could be how many diapers you changed, a funny thing he/she said, a horrid tantrum, but later it will remind you of all those little things. I have only recently started reading your blog as I have started trying to improve on living in the moment rather than constantly planning for the future and worrying over each decision. Thank you for your words.
Thanks Melissa.... good to meet ya!
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