Gravy!

Marveling. Marveling at life and all its crazy twists and turns, that pretty much sums up my mood today.

It will forever amaze me how one tiny event in my life can cause me to write a blog post, and then for days afterward I can see and feel the ripple effects of that post on others and their lives.

Last week I had an experience that unhinged me – just a little. I realized, quite late in this game, that at this space, my totally public blog, I am vulnerable. I am open to people I don't know, whose agendas I don't know, learning about me and mine. It caused some hurt, a little unsettling fear and I found out that I may not be quite as tough as I think I am. So, what does a blogger do when confronted with this type of situation...well, we write a blog post of course!

I took that icky, stalked upon feeling and just poured myself out to you, my blog world friends. It became a “a what you see is what you get” kind of post, an open letter to whomever was curious about my life and my feelings. The process was therapeutic, you can read the blog if you choose – it is here and I have also added it to my sidebar, as it has ended up being something I am really proud to have written.

After I wrote and posted it, all I wanted was for one particular person to read it, to come out of the shadows, stop trying to guess about my life and those I love and feel free to just ask. The post has been read, but I didn’t get a response.

You know what, I don’t care. I am not a game player, I was extending a hand outward, maybe one day I will get a comment in my inbox, but it doesn’t matter. What did happen was that several of my blog friends reached out and connected with me on some deeper levels. I showed some sides of my life that I usually don't and it brought friendships closer. The experience has well been worth it.

I love the blog world. I have said it time and time again, but it is such a neat community. We are people who take the time to put our lives out there for the world to view. We write of everyday occurrences, emotional times, happy times and significant happenings and achievements in our lives. We have good and bad days, insightful and mundane posts. We read each other’s work, are each other’s biggest cheerleaders and over time, some of us become really close friends. I can think right now of two bloggers whom I have met through this process and I would consider them among my true friends. Here is the kicker, they are scattered across the country and I have never seen them face to face.

So this is just a little wave to my blogger friends; I am so blessed by your presence in my life. Mama Bear and Gang, thank you for reading my words, for encouraging me, for reaching beyond the veil of the blog and meeting me in other places. I want so much to meet you and hug a neck…maybe one day we can find a way to make that happen.

To my family and other friends who read and encourage me and even to the lurkers, thank you. It is my honor to write here and have even one person read what I write. To know I can affect your life through this space...is gravy on an already overflowing plate!

Living Happily In The Moment!
Bev