Cloudy on a Sunshiney Day!

While I am clearly someone who loves people, adores my friends and family and enjoys spending time with all those I love, I have determined today that I am lousy at "reunion" type events.

Yesterday was heavenly to me...hanging out with friends I see very rarely, talking about our pasts and presents and futures, smiling and laughing so much that my face hurt afterwards...what is not to like about a day like that?

Well, I will tell ya...it is the next few hours after it is over and the next day when you realize that those same people are once again gone from your world...for some reason, it throws me over the abyss. I don't consider myself a very depressive type of personality...but today, today I woke up and wished for all my world that I had some medication to get me out of the blue funk I wandered into a some point during the night.

Perhaps it is just the "high" that comes from being happy, really happy for a few moments out of this year and the inevitable "low" that comes from every highly charged event that is capturing my good mood today. Perhaps it is the thought that I once had these friends around me everyday and only now, when they are far away, do I realize how much I took that for granted. Perhaps I long to be a teenager again...to do it all differently, erase some of the hurt and bad decisions and trek on a different path. Perhaps it is that mid-life crisis rearing it's ugly head again. Whatever the cause, I am feeling like sitting at a table for one, enjoying a little pity party...complete with some nutter butters and a slice of key lime pie.

As I am writing this post, my friend Abe just texted me that he is at the airport and had a great visit. He reminded me not to cry...that the best is yet to come! I hope so...I really hope so, cause just the thought of that is enough to keep me going.

I wish for you my bloggity friends that you have at least one of these spectacular friendships in your world...I can't imagine my life without it and it makes days like this bearable...cause I know that there is more laughter and fun in my future with my wild and crazy friends.

Living Happily in the Moment!
Bev