All my life, even though I have felt loved and valued, in EVERY relationship I have ever had...parental, girlfriend, boyfriend, spousal...I have always felt like I was somehow lost in the shuffle. It is hard to put into words, but for some reason, I am not the person that people dote on, I am the one that remembers the tidbits of all the others, and no one ever really remembers stuff about me. I am not the one in the crowd that people fuss over, here is a for instance...I have been married to my husband for 18 years -- he just found out last night that I don't drink Pepsi and that I love Orange Crush. Seriously -- I have had Orange Crush in the pantry for at least 16 of those years...I wonder if he thinks it is the same box - who does he think drank it? See what I mean? And it is not just him...I am not hubby bashing... there are others around me - good friends, close friends, that have no idea I am scared of heights, or claustrophobic or that I like Sting...really? How can you miss these things? I think I am open and giving, but for some reason, I am always feeling like no one really knows me.
I say all of that for one reason and one reason only, I finally found have that person in my world. It has taken 44 years, but she finally arrived. Yesterday as we got home from school and I began the disassembling of my child's bookbag, I found a "book" she had written about me. It is a Mother's Day thang with questions and she filled in the blanks and then drew a picture...
Here is the transcript (her answers are in bold, my comments are in italic and parenthesis)
This is my Mom...
During the day she GOES TO WORK.
My mom is very good at WRITING (ah..sweet, but not really!)
The thing I love best about my mom is ALWAYS NICE TO ME
On the weekends, she LETS ME GO TO EDISTO BEACH (well, sure, if we could!)
(and here is the one that made me cry!!)
She doesn't like BIRDS!
The picture is illustrating me (note the sad face) and a bird that just flew past me!! FINALLY -- someone who really knows me!! Gosh, I love this kid!! And if you are wondering about me and the birds....just read this!
All this time I have been waiting for someone to know me and I never realized she was here, living in the house with me. I never knew how much she observes me and what I do and don't do and like and don't like. I thank God each day for giving me such a wonderful gift in this child. She made me a mom...and filled in ALL the gaps in my world.
Happy Mother's to My Mom, My Aunt Nell, My Mother in Law and all of you!
Living Happily in the MOMent!
Bev
3 comments:
Hey... I knew about Sting and Pepsi...and, I am deathly afraid of birds too!!
I love you, friend!!
And that is why I love you too my friend...oh - I don't like horses or peaches either...hahahaha
I knew it. We ARE twins. Really.
I hate birds. Their beady little eyes, their pointy little beaks. Who knows where they are gonna fly next? Who knows what goes on in that little bird brain? Are they plotting a revolt? Are they gonna peck me to death? Poop on my head and laugh uproariously in bird talk about me behind my back?
These are the things I think when I see a bird. Any bird. Anywhere.
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