Light Bulbs, Blown Glass, A Cheese Souffle, Me. What Do These Things Have In Common Tonight?

One of my favorite movies is A Christmas Story and one of my favorite parts is when the dad gets his big "prize" in a big box with FRAGILE written on the side and he pronounced it "Fra-Ge-Lay" with a strong Italian emphasis, thinking it was surely from Italy! It is hysterical - although I am sure I have not done it justice, in the wee tiniest bit, here.

Tonight - I am feeling FRA-GE-LAY too. There just seems to be so much going on around me and if I sit still for too long I feel like I will surely break. My life is stressful right now, I won't even try to sugar coat it for you. STRESSFUL!!!!!!!!!!

My nerves are close to the surface with starting back to work, my child back in school and deadlines all around. I have people in life that are struggling...some with death of loved ones, some with financial worries, some with spiritual strife, some with life altering illnesses of their loved ones and even some facing serious illness themselves. None, I repeat, NONE of these situations allow for me to do ANYTHING to help anyone and that in itself is stressing me out. I am a fixer. I like to help, I like to visit, I like to listen, I like to be "leaned on" when times are hard and if I can't do these things for someone I love who is hurting, it just bothers me.

So, tonight, as I sit here and think about all of this...I feel very fragile, very vulnerable, tired and helpless. Tonight, I just want to sit and cry. But I know I can't - not now, there is bedtime routine for my girl, laundry and a carpet to vacuum, there is a kitchen to tidy and clothes to make ready for tomorrow. My only hope is in the Living God of the universe, who sees all the needs of all the ones I love and knows just what to do in EVERY situation. Thank goodness that if I know nothing else tonight...I know that and for that reason alone, I may feel fragile, but I know I am strong!

Living Happily in the Moment!
Bev