My New Happy Place

Here I go again, fighting the desire to write a post about why I haven't written a post in who knows how long? My first want is to apologize - but then I try and figure out why that is, because really who am I apologizing to? To you, or you, or the stranger in New Delhi? To my parents, to my friends, to the stalker who craves the minute details? Or should I apologize to me, it is my blog after all? It is my carved out place in this space to vent and laugh and share and work out the thoughts that whirl in my head and I have neglected it of late.

The truth is I really don't feel like apologizing at all.

I just feel like writing something...I haven't done it in a while, I miss the feel of the keyboard, the whir of the laptop, the thoughts that form in my brain and travel down only to appear in seconds on the screen before me. I miss the clearing of the clutter that a well timed post can give me. It is like cleaning off the corner of my kitchen counter that seems to be a magnet for all my child's homework papers. Sometimes I can walk right by it and never notice it, then other times, I have to stop WHATEVER I am doing and clear the clutter away. I am always happier when the clutter is gone...it is just an effort on some days more than rest.

I've been good, no drama, only work, caring for my family and missing sleep on a regular basis. I have missed so much sleep these last few weeks that I have taken to drinking coffee more and more and thinking seriously about installing a new coffee pot in my home to facilitate this habit even more in my life.

But truly my life is happy and fall is here, the leaves are turning and the cool air has arrived. I am finding that I have, without even a conscience thought, re-ordered my world and my priorities. Things that were hard and complicated this time last year are clear and easy today. I am clear on where my heart lies, where my future rests, how I want to love my loved ones, how I would chose if I had to chose. More on that later, but for now, this fall is peaceful for me, it is my happy place...the only way it would be better is if I was sitting on the beach writing this post!!

Living Happily in the Moment!
Bev