Another Try...

I couldn't get peace
couldn't stop thinking about you
all morning, all during church
I haven't spoken to you in quite awhile,
I haven't even spoken your name aloud...the doing so
would shatter me....
Every gesture goes without notice...
But today I worked up enough nerve to
actually dial the digits to your phone
I just couldn't hit Send...
I felt like it would go unanswered
You wouldn't take the call
And you used to ALWAYS take my call
And that made me sad
So sad
Sadder than sad
And so I spent the afternoon
in silent wail, tears flowing down as I watched mindless
television and
missed you
and wondered how are you
and where are you
and will you ever be in the
orbit of my world again
My friend, my heart, my someone I could always count on.
So once again I use the public
to display the private pain
to reach out and speak
to find out
to wonder aloud into the abyss
do you ever ...?
and would you have
answered me when I called?


Sometimes you just need to throw a bottle with a message tucked inside, out into the wild blue...and hope it lands on the right distant shore and somehow comes back to you! 

Wishin...
Bev