Just so you know...I avoid Mother's Day like the plague!
Truly -- I am not a fan of the day. I spent so many years crying on the day...trying to get through church services that focused on motherhood, wanting all the moms to stand up and so forth or even worse baby dedications that took place during those services. It was trauma on top of trauma for me...the scars are still on my heart... and yes, I know, I should have been just focusing on the happiness of having my mom around, being thankful and celebrating her...but when you are in the midst of fertility issues, miscarriages and so forth...it is very hard to do.
That said, I do want to wish all the moms a happy mother's day, mine included. I am six years away from the horrors I once endured on the day, I have a beautiful child that is truly my gift from God and for six years I have been able to participate in all the commerical, touchy feely Mother's Day events. And yet, as much as I am her mother, she is also a part of a woman who I love and try to honor everyday. I am trying to raise this kiddo the best way I know how...trusting that every decision is the right one and if nothing else, giving her Jesus, just as I promised I would when she was placed into my arms. This day is filled with tons of bittersweet emotion for babies unborn, grandmothers gone, moms and moms in law still with me, and my child's birthmother who I know is struggling with bittersweet emotions of her own Mother's Day. To say it is a hard day is quite the understatement for me.
I hope you and yours have a great day...we are all gathering at my house -- I am cooking and can't wait to give our gifts to our moms!!
Happily,
Bev
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